Sometime last year, I was forced to go in a direction that led me find a better version of my self. 2014 was actually not my year but this feature http://babyandbreakfast.ph/2015/01/02/blooms-and-brights/ brought so much inspiration and made me say, "my sacrifice in the name of passion was not in vain after all". 

Jack and Lleina are my wedding clients. Since Lleina was pregnant when she walked down the aisle, we had decided to do a maternity photoshoot with her wedding photographer no other than Mr. Lloyed Valenzuela and had it styled by the awesome April Carillo of First of April. It's actually the same suppliers from her wedding. I called it "copy-paste" :)

While browsing the page of such feature, I can't help but be emotional and reminisce  those fun days with this couple, with Sir Lloyed and April. From planning their wedding to this maternity shoot, to their Baby Alex's Christening and photoshoot, and definitely her birthday soon late this year. Those events were much funnnn because of these people. This feature is just a bonus. To work with brilliant, creative, awesome, light and easy people like them is all that matters. To add, becoming their friend.

Indeed, it's a happy new year. I don't know what this year brings but I hope and pray it will be good to me.

It's been six months since comfort zone was taken away from me. And from then on I had decided that I will pursue my passion and live my dream of becoming a sought-after Event Organizer here in Cebu and neighboring provinces in the Visayas. I may not know how to make this work, but I have faith in the Supreme Being that He will make a way, He will open doors and will line up the right opportunities for me. 

It is my vision to become excellent in this new venture that is why everything that I do and every decision that I make must lead to the realization of that vision. I know this not gonna be easy, but I am pretty sure it's worth all the tears, sleepless nights trying to figure out what to do next, and hardwork. 

Yes I am afraid to what comes next. I am afraid that I will not be able to do events when tomorrow comes. I am afraid that time might come when I have to give up this dream and be lost forever. I am afraid that one day I will just decide to update my resume and go back to the office world. Oh well there's nothing wrong with that, HR is my second love anyway. But first love (event) never dies. LOLZ!

As they say, fear will keep us from making new discoveries and life is too short to be anything but happy. Yeah I so believe on that. All of us wouldn't be around for long in this world that is why I want to take this drop. To create an awesome successful event is pure joy and in that moment I know that I am alive. 

Life is an adventure. My idol pro-surfer Bethany Hamilton said that sometimes you wiped out and end up in the impact zone (just like surfing). Falling down is part of life, getting back up is living. And for as long as I have those people who continually believe, support, and love me, being full time in events is still worth trying for. 

I got emotional the moment I held this phone the first time. This is exactly what I've been looking for. In this world of touch screens and wifi/3g/lte, it is also good to be "in". Plus having BridesBestfriend "business" now, I really need a smart phone. 

I am maintaining two numbers: a postpaid from globe and a prepaid from sun. And I have 2 phones (low end actually lolz). Most of my office mates and college friends are globe while my church mates are mostly sun cellular subscribers. So you see, I can't give up either of the two. I am in constant communication with my friends everyday talking about non-sense from The Buzz tsismis to the end of the world. And so I need that unli calls both network.hehe.

Then here comes GG. We are a match made in heaven. Something I can afford. Yes iPhone is damn beautiful, but it's really way out of my budget. GG is a dual-sim phone which is really perfect for me. I have unlimited internet on my phone. Communication is now convenient. Maybe there are stuff GG is limited say for example the camera is not as nindot as the iPhones but I don't need it anyway coz I don't do selfie lolz. 

Then months after new models were coming out...Note, S4, iPhone5, iPhone5s etc etc. But there's no way I will give up on GG. I don't know but I am contented and happy with GG already. Then I've realized that perhaps true love is like this. 

Perhaps just like GG, when the "one" arrives, I will know it. Not as gwapo as the iPhone, but gwapo in such a way I can afford because he is of the same level. He will not be perfect but definitely exactly what I need just like GG. And when I'm with him, I don't think maibog pa kog laing gwapo just like the S4, iPhone5s etc. :D

What I'm saying is, in this huge wide world, there is really this somebody who will meet right exactly what you've been looking for. It took years for this galaxy grand to come out, perhaps I will have the same love story. 

Am I making sense? Bwhahahaaa!

I remember when I was a kid, every after school, me and my cousins would immediately gather for some chitchats and talked stuff like pinoy showbiz, our crushes, our school life, our upcoming social events, our dance practices. I grew up in a family (in a compound surrounding with relatives) who are fond of chitchats and social events. I think no one in the clan is into books, a geek, into music, sports minded and an overly achiever. 
We belong to the average kind of species. 

Not until we graduated college; when we started to expose ourselves to the real world, that eventually leads us to find our real being--what we want and who we want to become. My brother sticks to being an Electrical Engineer and will never ever settle to a job that isn't related to it. Then he ventures to his first love -music- now that he can afford to buy instruments, and his "bangbang stuff". I remember he wanted to become a soldier if he won't become an Engineer. My other sibling defines himself as a home buddy and we don't care. He works in the city where we grew up and never have the intention of venturing his career somewhere else. 
That's him, and we love him for that. After all he brings cute pretty little angels at home :)

And as for me, it took a long time till I was able to define who I am. I've been through a lot of crisis and dramas in life. I actually knew what I wanted, but the risks were way too high. 
Indeed the past wasn't the right time. 

Then the One up there just give you things at the right moment. Becoming a "carebear" (that's what we call ourselves in the office) brought so much joy in my life. How could someone be so lucky to be part of Caresharing. My life has changed and was never been the same when I joined in that company. Then I found my passion in wedding planning and the doors of opportunities are opening up. It just felt great to be part of someone else's once-in-a-lifetime event. Each client inquiries freak me out. Some considered; some didn't and it's okay, 
the experience is really worth it! 

Life is so much beautiful now. I work. I travel. I love. I fail. And now I want to become a 
marathoner and I am very very excited :D
There is so much freedom in my life now. I don't have hang-ups from the past. Yes I was hurt. I released blessing of forgiveness. I've learned. I got humbled. And still willing to learn even more. And I believe the best is yet to come. 
As my idol Lea Salonga's song Journey,
What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
And they're bound to guide my way
When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in
I have been to sorrow
I have been to bliss
Where I'll be tomorrow
I can only guess
Through the darkest desert
Through the deepest snow
Forward, always forward I go.